upset. happy. worried. calm. thinking. guilt. fake. fantastic. sighs. feelings, could i really express them to public? having the whole world know what has gotten me every single day of my life? perhaps, through blogging? :( 'cause i seriously no idea to whom i should talk to? mom? sisters? friends? girlfriends? bestfriend? boyfriend? tell me how can i do that when i surely do have issues with every single of them? lets see, should i talk to mom about a problem encountered between me and my friends when i actually talk about mom to my besfriend when i get upset? or should i talk about me and girlfriend's problem to my boyfriend when i actually talk about him to my girlfriend when we had our things don't work out? don't you find that pathetic? :( and me, my issue is, i don't get to talk about anything to anywho, just because of this paranoid thingy. i know... it's crap. yes, i'm talking crap now and act like one.
so blogging... should help. i hope so.
